July 31st, 2007

Bright and beautiful future

Bright and beautiful future

Those who preach endlessly about how bad things are, do so mainly to advance their own power and influence. Instead of being frightened into submission by the negative scenarios, choose to follow the positive possibilities.
Life has always been challenging, and it will continue to be. Yet that is no reason to be gloomy or fearful, for in every challenge there is great opportunity.

Whatever you focus on will grow stronger and more influential in your world. Choose to focus on creative, innovative, loving, respectful and beautiful ways to move forward.

****Those who obsess over assigning blame only end up making the problems worse. What you can do now is far more important than who is at fault.

If you give your energy to fear and hatred, whatever you fear and whatever you despise will grow bigger and more imposing. Is that really what you want?

The future is as bright and beautiful as you decide to see it. See it, live it, and make it so.***

-- Ralph Marston

This is right where I am today. I came across it looking over some of my old journaling I keep in another place. I am trying not to focus on the negative. I don't want to feed my fear and anxiety and have it grow. It will. It has in the past. That is where my obsessive/compulsive behavior comes into play. It is something I have learned to work through and not feed, to not give into the drama of the moment, to not create a mountain out of a mole hill, to not give the itty-bitty-shitty-committee the room in my skull to take up residence.

I am dealing with old, past issues that randomly resurface. And, everytime they do, it is like a kick in the gut. But what am I reacting to? Past feelings of pain and hurt or the possiblity of future pain and hurt? To curtail the future, all I have to do is say no and stay resolute. To curtail the past, I need to not focus on the negative, to not feed it the energy that it desires.

Don't meditate on the negative, meditate on the positive for whatever you meditate on, you bring to you and create in your world.

My 2 cents anyway.


So, I'm eating lunch - soy "peanut" butter and jelly with my feet kicked up reading Harry Potter.


Jelly oozes onto my book.

Blast it all! I put the last corner of my sandwich on the desk and scoop up a clump of jelly. My office mate hands me a napkin to clean up the rest that has gotten on the edge of the hardback of the book and the paper cover.

I clean all of that up with nary a grape jelly stain showing. I go back to my sandwich.

No sandwich.

I look on the floor. There it is on the carpet that Facility Services hasn't vacummed in weeks getting all carpetie.

*Le Sigh* I scoot my chair back to get the fuzzy remains and throw it away.

No sandwich.

WTF! I look again. My chair has caught the bit of sandwich and drug it across, and ground it, into the already dirty carpet.

*Le Sigh* again. I pick up as much of it as I can, try and rub the soy butter out of/into the carpet as much as possible, toss that in the trash and make another half of sandwich.

Where upon, lunch is over and I have to go back to work with only 2 pages of Deathly Hallows being read.

*Le Sigh*